2003-04-11

i think its time to update again

This evening I was reading over some of my older entries. Sometimes I do that. I feel like a completely different person now than I was this summer. Or at the beginning of this year. I don't know what that means.

I was reminded of Ali D. again reading over my entries from early last semester, and she was also mentioned in the Washington Post today. And I thought about that time when I told Valerie that it had happened. And she told me about a classmate of hers that had just died. That is so bizarre. We were talking about people we knew who had died, unaware of the fact that in just a few months Valerie too would be dead. I still can hardly believe it. Sometimes I still expect to see her walking around on campus sometimes, every time I see someone with wild frizzy hair . . .

Life is so precious and I hope that neither I or any of you ever take any second of it for granted. I know I do anyway but I'll always try. There's so much I want to do and so much I want to accomplish, and it can all be taken away in less than a second. Like Ali.

I don't know what direction I'm going in. But I love you all and I'm glad that you're alive and that I'm alive too. And I'm glad that next week is my birthday. :)