2003-04-15

non, rien de rien, non, je ne regrette rien......

The weather could not be more perfect. When i step outside I am accosted by . . . nothing. Which is so wonderful. To go outside and feel neither hot nor cold. And then I look up at the full moon and a warm breeze blows through me and I feel like I'm at the beach. It also reminds me of when we went to disney world in 11th grade, for some reason. That night when we went to the luau (i think it was that night) but I remember standing by the water with adrienne and marveling at the fireworks, and being nearly overcome with joy every time we saw the castle change colors. It was so amazing. haha.

This evening, I was filled with this intense desire to read Angels in America. I don't have any classes tomorrow and just wanted nothing more than to sit outside on this perfect evening and read the entire play. But my school's poor excuse for a library only had one copy which was checked out, our bookstore was closed, and, being nearly 10pm, it was too late to ride the metro somewhere that would have it. And so, after realizing that there was no possible way of getting my hands on this book that very instant, I sunk into an utter state of despair, the kind that overcomes you when the anticipation of a certain impulse that had been consuming you for the past few minutes suddenly vaporizes.

sigh. then, I really wanted to listen to Édith Piaf. But where can I find music by Édith Piaf at ten at night? God forbid I download Kazaa or any other illegal music pirating site.... And I also wanted to watch some weird foreign films in the library. But that would require me to be inside.

I don't know, the right hemisphere of my brain must be in control tonight.

Well, really what is in control is my current desire to partake in any activity that has nothing to do with school.