Wednesday, Jan. 14, 2004

fuck, it all

i feel like things never work out the way i want them to. four semesters, four different living situations. i had high hopes for every one. yet every one some how was screwed over by some unfortunate twist of fate. no matter what i do, it seems, something has to go awry. i was excited about this apartment. but let me just say that as of right now, i am less than thrilled with the outcome. of course it would be that way.

i feel like those around me have high expectations, they're so excited, about this coming semester. i'm not. i try to be optimistic at the beginning of everything, but i'm kind of tired of doing that now. seeing as how that's failed me so many times before. i kind of wish it were the fall again.