Thursday, May. 20, 2004

constriction

I had a medical emergency this morning and had to go to the doctor. missed work. probably will miss it tomorrow. had a high-school reminiscent experience when a good friend told me that another "friend" really may not be a friend afterall. i miss people that i can't see but i need to talk to. i am absolutely dreading leaving for france as much as i am anticipating it. i know it will be good for me though. i need to get out of here. especially now. found out this girl i used to babysit is suicidal. every time i see rumsfeld on the news i can't breathe. i am paralyzed by everything i have to do to leave on monday. And things don't seem to be going too well for me now . . .